I don't have friends outside of the internet, and I haven't in years. I'm living with my boyfriend but I find it very difficult to socialize with people outdoors. I think I've developed some sort of social anxiety. Finishing high school was a challenge that I really had to commit to because my depressive phases worsened by a lot, in 11th grade. I missed so much school - I just could not function. My boyfriend really helped me to pull myself together, but he is really the only one there for me in person. He helps me cope through my ups and downs. I make it a goal to do at least one thing I enjoy each day. I have faith that once I get on proper meds/treatment I will be able to work or at least leave my house without breaking down. I'm taking it one step at a time. Wishing you luck