Welcome to PC. You are recognizing that these thoughts are irrational. That is great. I know it would be very hard but would it help to talk through it with your T? You were so brave to put it out here. Just working through how what is causing you to have doubts and replacing them with what is actually going on can let the relationship grow. I know how hard that is as I often fall into this trap myself. I am sure that he cares about you as he has chosen this relationship for himself. Feel free to PM me if you want. Take care.

BB