I have been trying distractions but nothing feels pleasant I feel so sad I literally feel sick to my stomach like it just hurts and I don't know what to do I feel like I am being pulled down and down and down far away from this world nothing feels real here anymore and everything is covered by a haze that I can't get out of like they are I calling me to another world I don't know if I should go with them though they say theirs is better which I can't say I can contradict but I don't think I would feel anymore whole there than here. I am just exhausted I am sorry.