Day 0 I guess, after nearly 5 months.

The coffeehouse must have put a shot of caffeine in my smoothie by mistake because my heart was still racing at 2 am. I found a way to relax in my bed. I reached for the packing tape dispenser and began scraping it along my forearm. It's still pretty red.

I wasn't even taking that crap that makes me feel so numb and self-loathing.