After seeing my T today I just want to give up. It was not a bad session. We talked about important stuff, and we're still going strong when time was up...which is part of the problem I think. Lately, I feel like we are in the middle of something deep and time is up and I leave feeling heavy and defeated. I know I can't....but I want to give up and let the depression win. I just want to hide under my covers and cry myself to sleep. But I can't cry. And I can't sleep. my stomach is in constant knots from anxiety and the harder I fight the depression the worse I feel. Everyday it gets more difficult to hide this from my kids and coworkers...well just the coworkers, I don't think I am hiding anything from my kids.