My delusions are usually jealousy related.
I was convinced my boyfriend's biological cousin was flirting with him and that he was looking at her boobs. I was also convinced that my niece and my boyfriend were talking about me and that he was flirting with her, and that he would purposely wait until she got in the shower to go upstairs to get something so he could try to peek in at her.
I was also convinced that he was doing "something" on his computer he didnt want me to see. I thought porn, looking at profiles on facebook, messaging other girls, also thought he could be trying to contact his ex's son who was basically his son but thought he was trying ti keep it a secret.
I hadnt done that in a long time, until last week when I was convinced he was trying to hide something on his computer again. And then after he talked me down I was convinced he did things to make me believe that he was hiding something just to **** with me!!
Other delusions i have had are the mistakes I made being equivelant to murder and that I should be punished as a murderer. That certain bad things happening in my life were me being punished by the universe for my mistakes. Doctors saying bad things about me.
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all I've undergone
I will keep on
underneath it all
we feel so small
the heavens fall
but still we crawl
all I've undergone
I will keep on
-NIN
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