I know when you said that you meant that you wouldn't abandon me (and I believe you. And I (therapy) love you for it), but I really really don't want to be seeing you for 20 years. (Even though I'm going to miss you so much) I want real-life relationships that are as special as our therapeutic relationship. I want friends and best-friends (and maybe even a new husband or wife. Maybe. Maybe...) who are not at the other side of the world.
I am grateful for our therapeutic relationship and all that I have learned and am learning from it, but there is no denying the fact that it is Painful. I am so close - best friend close, to you, but you are not my friend, and that hurts. It hurts even more lately that you're so busy and don't have time to answer my emails between sessions. Even though I understand, I know, it hurts that I am not a priority. I know that you care, I know, I know. But I am still just your client and I don't want to need to send an email to my therapist when I'm upset.
20 years. No... No. I will not be lost like this for so long. I (therapy) love you and I am grateful but in twenty years I will be so far from where I am now and you will be a beloved memory.