Don't look back, it will eat you up. I know it sounds trite, but we can't change what has happened. I've always looked back with regret and finally realized I can't change the fact that I made a bunch of bad decisions and basically self destructed. I quit jobs on a whim, passed out in my driveway (as a 40 year old adult), drove my car when I didn't remember how I got home, endangered my family and injured myself by taking stupid risks, and destroyed some of my possessions in fits of rage. My past alcohol use was a huge problem for me and it clouded my judgment since I didn't realize (at the time) that I was also BP.

It really is a battle we all fight every day. I just try to be mindful and move forward from here. As time moves on, things will get a little bit better in small amounts until we all realize the negative stuff is behind us.