Seven weeks ago I had traumatic event which triggered my nervous break down . It seems like my break down of ten years ago was somewhat similar slow slide in weak depression , Trauma then a fight scenario which my adrenaline surge makes me expend large furious amounts of energy to try and fix things for weeks then a complete collapse mentally and physically .
Then several months of severe depression, anxiety meds and psych slowly drifting back to normal . I can't remember the rest of it . I tried to heal .
It seems like my severe depression is lifting some but the anxiety still fairly strong . I suspect excess adrenaline in my system causes the nervous anxiety . Physical exercise in the last phase helped complete it .
In short I 'm trying to place myself in these phases so maybe my mind will see hope of recovery and when .
Still fighting off the thoughts of self destruction that pop up in my mind during painful moments . I have lots of work to do fighting this thing and I guess I'm going to have to find my own road map .
I'm ranting ,knowing there isn't such info out there . We are all looking for the easy path , but it doesn't kill me to look for one. Can I ever get back to enjoying something in my life ? Time is passing-- it is my hope. Trouble is I'm getting old and I have to get back to provide help to the family .