Do you feel depressed or guilt? It's perfectly normal to feel drained and depressed after an orgasm. Some people get reeeeally depressed after. If it's guilt and disgust, then it's just a you thing. It's really nothing to be ashamed of. You where probably brought up to believe it's not ok to talk about such a thing or do such a thing. Everyone does it, some people just aren't mature enough to talk about it and others don't know what they're on about. Like me. But... I had a point. Yeah, it's nothing to be disgusted about. Just don't over do it or you might hurt yourself.