Looking for hearing from friends are the same as me, as a lot of times I feel so lonely in the world. I experienced too much pain, phycological, depressed, self doubt, felt lonely, felt helpless. I could had sleep problem for over 5 years because of ADHD.

I did everything to try to conceal the fact that I have ADHD after I started my career. Now I am working as a portfolio manager at one of the largest investment company in the states. I work very hard and try to concentrate while talking, and because my work is very outstanding, it hides my communication weakness. All my colleagues respect me, and like me. I had to say I am lucky, as when I was young, I was always the student in the last percentile, because I never could concentrate at class, and always forgot homework, never could sit still in the classroom, and extremely careless while taking exams. In terms of communication, as I could not concentrate even talking with others face to face, and my mind was jumping from A to Z and to A again, people always felt difficulty in communicating with me. But good thing is, as I grew up, I became more and more self-esteem (at high school). I felt bad that I got bad score, so one day before the exam, I concentrated and studid overnight, and next day when I took exam, I got high score. I was able to go to the top university, and after completing my undergraduate education, I took GMAT with 730, and went another top school to study finance. But until that time, I still had serious ADHD, I was not able to network well (especially for a b-school student, this is quite important), and did not make many friends at school. I interviewed with some top banks for a few times, and because of communication problem, I lost a few very good opportunity to work in good departments. But I guess with gaining work experience, I started to have more opportunities to live in a social environment, to interact with others, and I started to get to used to communicating with others. I have the same problem as before, but now I am able to conceal it. This is something I never want anybody know, and I want to talk to someone, and I want to also listen to others' stories. That is why I come here. Thank you for reading through my story.

btw... if my parents knew I had ADHD and started treatment when I was a child, maybe I would have less pain. So I also hope to help some parents, and tell them how to help their children.

A summary of my progress:
When I was a child, I
1. Had extremely bad temper while talking to everyone
2. Could not sit still for 1 mins and kept on talking, very energetic
3. Could not concentrate, on class, while talking to others, or reading
4. Forget things very easily, late for appointment, make tinny mistakes
5. Mind jump too fast
Now, I
1. Still bad temper but only to my family, can control in an office environment
2. Able to sit still and talk as a normal person if I pay attention to my behavior, still v roy energetic, sleep only for 5-6 hours a day and do a lot of work
3. Concentration problem is really difficult to conquer, but I should say a little bit better than before
4. Make tiny mistakes as always, could not control, but better than before. Late for appointment, forget things, poor memory, still the same, but should be better than before
5. Mind jump, better than before class trying to think as a normal person, follow others' way of thinking

With ADHD, I can only do jobs with lots of creativity, maths, designs, strategies, but not routine work.