I've noticed an odd trend in myself and it kind of worried me and confused me so I went to see if anyone had this same thing and I couldn't find anything.
I often enjoy to not be in control. Sometimes I like to be told what to do. I like to be controlled. Before anyone skips to any weird conclusions, this is not a sexual thing. Nor even strictly relationships. That's all I could find online was sexual fetishes and such. I am a senior in high school, I have never had sexual relations.
I just enjoy being submissive. It's weird and I'm kind of worried something is wrong with me...
Last school year I started showing symptoms of depression and anxiety. I'm suicidal and have self-harm issues. I already knew I had a sleeping disorder and possible and unidentified eating disorder (no appetite, eating is an unpleasant chore). I'm sorta scared that yet another thing is wrong with me, but I really want to understand this. I have a friend who's been really helping me through things and she's started noticing this in me and I just want to at least be able to explain it to her.