I'm chronically late for work because I don't wake up. Depression exacerbates this; I sleep all day long on my days off because of the meaninglessness I feel in my life. So I'm not sleepy during the time I should go to bed. For 3 hours in the morning I hit the sleep button. I've never had a healthy sleep routine. And when I was a child I was enamored with the idea of staying up late or all night.... maybe had something to do with shyness or getting to be alone. Sometimes I'm able to get on track but it doesn't take much to fall right back into my erratic sleep. I don't have as much trouble falling asleep as I used to; now it's just the waking up part.

It's getting ridiculous. I've gotten by without punishment or discipline for a long time. I'm not sure why. Maybe my bosses know I care about my job and I do good work. I think the not getting in trouble for it kind of enables me. I have a new boss starting Monday and with the time change in about a week right now is the ideal time to start.

But here I am after midnight messing around on my computer when I should be awake by 6am tomorrow morning.