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Originally Posted by amandalouise
the symptoms in me that were called DID was not the voices. it was having two or more special kind of alters that constantly took control and affected all aspects of my life since before I was 5 years old....having a special kind of memory loss in which the two or more alternate personalities knew what went on and I the aware person did not. with me the time loss did not increase over time. it was contingent on when I dissociated (got triggered by something and that triggering resulted in the alter whose job, purpose, reason for being took control to handle that situation), these alters taking control happened in all aspects of my life not just when I was alone and there was no hiding it for it was out of my control.
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I've had them come out at times when it wasn't "safe", which has lead me to avoid so many things because I'm never sure what is going to happen. I'm not saying I have control over them, because frankly I never know what is going to happen. I do have to say the last 10+ years have been much different than when I was younger. I'm not sure if the deal they made with my ex is the cause of that, or if they just haven't had the need to deal with anything.
I guess I'll just wait and see what the therapist says... I'm just tired of trying to guess at what they are.