empathy goes a long way... i mean, really.. what else can we do here?

i am torn over what to do this week. Do i just suck it up with the physical pain and go back? or quit? i am seeing that the lack of structure isn't so great for me, and losing that icon of independence is very depressing... but my medical issues are not minor. i have hypermobility syndrome and it has destabilized my spine basically. Joint issues are always a problem, but they generally come and go... the back issue has gotten worse and worse. i have a vertebrae slipped out over the top of another, thankfully to a minor degree so far. So... the cost of keeping the job is actually pretty high. The cost of losing the job is no small change mentally either.

No one can tell me what to do as no one can offer me a solution to the problems which arise in either case...

i am so depressed. i don't see T until Tuesday this week. i am dying to talk to him about this... he'll be in his element to be dealing with something so concrete. He prefers it to more vague stuff... dang CBT infuence.