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Originally Posted by precaryous
So, why don't I feel better? What good does it do for me to feel depressed and cry about history now? How does that help me?
It just strikes me that crap things happened and yet I still tried....tried to be normal..tried to get good grades...tried to develop relationships...get married..have children..just like normal people. I certainly thought one day I would mature, catch up and feel normal... That didn't happen, either.
Right this second, I'm tired of trying.
I don't know why I try so hard to stay here.
It's really ironic.
I don't understand what I'm doing. |
I can understand your frustration. It just seemed to make common sense to just learn how to deal with today and get brainwashed into becoming a " clinical robot ". That makes the therapists job a lot easier when all they have to do is something like cognitive therapy. I used to think that psychotherapy was BS although deep down I wanted to get to the root causes of my behavior and personality. But the fact is that's an impossible task as it's just too complicated. I believe that to cure a disease you have to get to the root of the problem , and psychology is in the primitive state of mankinds progression.
It's about catharsis. The hope is that a revelation will have an impact on your psyche enough to make a difference. To me the "why" was the ultimate question. Well I don't ask why all the time anymore and try to accept life for what is , a trip that can be good , bad , or usually somewhere in-between.
Wishing you the best