Maintaining as Scarlett! Yay! Happy to be back and somewhat in control, but everything is different from when I was last front and center...I'm sad and confused. This is not my world...and I am terrified that I'm gonna get locked away again, when Holly is "fixed".... Even My Rockstar is not the man I remember... it's not fair!! I'm having serious trust issues with Vicki. She has changed. She hides stuff from me, she is cold and distant, acts like she is the boss of me!! I can't find Holly anymore...There are others I am ok with but they are NOT MY FAMILY...everything is a mess. I feel used. : (