Welcome to the transgender forum saphirblue!

To answer one of your questions, yes, questioning your gender is completely normal, and so is doubting those feelings.

Gender is a complicated subject, it's hard to really pin down why we feel the way we do, and why we feel such a strong need to. I know I was so confused when I suddenly felt so out of place in my own skin. I never really had the childhood feeling of wanting to be anything other than a girl (I'm afab). But suddenly when I was 17, I suddenly was hit with a wave of depression at how I looked and how people saw me as a "girl" and it was so weird. Long story short, now I'm a demiguy who is currently on t.

The best way to deal with these feelings is to really think on it and research. Ask yourself questions on how you want others to see you and how you see yourself. Talk to others about your experiences, listen to theirs. Look at other labels, see how pronouns feel to you. It's kind of a journey.

And in the end, the only person who can tell you who you are is you. I hope this was helpful, or at least comforting.