I have survived to this point , increased meds, hard physical labor to burn off nervousness . I don't know about tomorrow ,I hate to see dawn after the meds , another day to face .
Calmed down some but I feel i could fall back at anytime, rough decisions ahead , can I make good ones ? Horrible scenes to face anyway . Can I do it, I really don't know. The things I should be doing are haunting me too. I know I'm wearimg out my suppport network at the same time. Some meds have helped I'm sure but I feel like I'm fragile and could crack at anytime .