In that black hole too and with recent turns in my life I fear it only getting worse still. But I DID see my psychiatrist this week. The act of just talking helped, but more importantly he got a counsellor to come see me today (yes a house call!). She stayed about two hours. I think it helped because all my sadness was bottled in. Boy it's going to be hard work. I need to find some ways to get busy. Hard without much of a way to meet people. Social anxiety pretty much prevents meetup groups and lack of money prevents things like an art class.