I stopped my brother from coming on that long needless trip . In the end he was greatful as he doesn't travel well . I relieved him that he could not help me by traveling 700 miles for no results . His wife wuold have sufferd greatly . I alone bear the burden of getting well and this is not the movies with all happy endings . Down today- as I have overburdened my support system bad last night . My messed up mind went too many places it should not have . Broken links at this point are very bad for us all.