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CuriouslyCrazy · Oct 25, 2015, 08:36 PM

I've dealt with impulsivity before. The spending, driving fast, adventures, drinking, ect. But I've never felt like this.

Possible trigger:

Has anyone ever had problems with self injury when not depressed, but rather hypo/manic? I have had this overwhelming urge to self harm for a while now, but I have been able to push the thoughts aside in most cases. I did impulsively self harm last week, but I thought that I would be fine. And the thoughts are back with a vengeance. I NEED to do it. There's too much blood flowing inside my body right now and my body is going insane. I can't control anything. I don't have an emotional reason for wanting to self harm. I don't want to, but I need to. If I don't get this excess blood out of my body, I'm going to go crazy. I don't know what to do.

I'm painting, drawing, scribbling. I would much rather go swimming, go to the beach. But I can't get this out of my head. There is no way that this is my brain thinking this right now. Why on earth is this on my mind? I need to slow down my thoughts.