Anxiety the most I think. I hate this seeing it as it is. It makes me anxious. I'd like to live a stupid lie as well.

Also it would be hella nice sometimes to be appreciated for all things I do for free for others (like fixing their computers) while they tell me how stupid and lazy I am for not being able to do dishes every day. But I'm not allowed to tellem how stupid they are for messing up their computers.