I want to stop feeling miserable. All my life I have being living scared of everything. I feel like I'm a rollercoaster, Up and down everytime. Why I cannot make myself happy, why I cannot save myself? Everything that I see are mistakes. How to stop feeling guilty, How to find the right way? I'm tired of drowning myself into tears everytime, and I'm tired of remembering about my past everytime. I cannot make others happy. I wish I could. I don't want this anymore but I cannot escape from myself, althouth I wish I could.