The last two days alone I've cut out all but two caregivers (who have proven I can trust them) so I can sympathise there. It's difficult to trust them yet if you don't then there's no way of getting help. My GP is the 9th one I've had and it's taken 4 years before I can finally speak to him out loud on my own; and one out of 7 people meant to be helping me at the moment has made it... Rest were very elegantly thrown off my case because I wasn't dealing with anyone I couldn't trust.

In terrified every time I leave the house, and scared when I don't. I go to these evenings with the Autism social group because we don't have to talk to each other unless we feel we can and want to. We don't have to worry about upsetting each other; and above all everyone is honest.

Also, my mother has a fear of me developing agoraphobia so has started a 'let's drag her out of the house once a day' thing and has actually been sticking to it pretty well. Yesterday she got me out to buy white oil paint and new brushes and I only complained a few times