I recently got hired as a mental health tech and although I'm terrified they'll find out that I should probably inpatient myself right now, I really like it. I'm surrounded by my people and out pays well. I'm still in the midst of the worst depression I've ever experienced, but if nobody notices, maybe I'll be ok. They know I have bipolar 1, so I would think they'd expect a little off my nonsense. That said, I tried to work a noc shift last night, but I had to hold my night meds to stay awake for it (ap, mood stabilizer, and benzodiazepines). By the time my shift was over I was a ****ing mess... I was seeing ****, I felt like I was about to crawl out of my skin... And I was feeding off of a patient's mania in some way, which left me in some sort of mixed state, bawling and simultaneously full of energy and rage... It was rough. I can't believe what a difference my tiny dose of antipsychotic makes... And I got plenty of sleep before this shift.

Sent from my HTC One_M8 using Tapatalk