This past week has been a living hell.
I've had the same repetitive nightmares every time I sleep. So I've stopped sleeping. Last night I spent all my time in an anxious state and vomiting almost constantly. I don't feel in control of myself or my head. I want to understand why I'm being tortured by these dreams, I'm not bad at interpreting some things for myself, but I'm not good enough to understand the more complex aspects of these things. And I can't seem to put things together.

The worst nightmare always takes place in a really dark warehouse type place that stretches on for what seems for miles in large single isle with a lot of smaller isles on both the right and left sides. It's very large and its mostly storage and living quarters for serial killers, monsters, and demons. It's like a different dimension. I'm always there, out of place, searching out for a single person to murder him for whatever reason of revenge or something. And he's called the Santa Claus, and he looks like Santa when I first find him. But then he'll realize I don't belong there or that I'm there for him, or at least last time I took something from him. And then he becomes this horrific monster. His eyes turn black and sunken in with beady bright orange pupils, his jaw becomes slack like a snake and masses of what seems to look like thin long tentacles wave about frantically, and his spine grows ragged and long and he has claws on his hands and feet and he chases me very quickly on all fours. It's terrifying and I'm convinced that I've failed and I'm going to die and that its going to hurt. And this sort of scene repeats itself over and over. I don't understand it.
I understand that none of that probably made much sense and I know my writing and grammar is probably horrible. I haven't slept in over 24 hours now, so please forgive me... I'm just lost. I don't really know what to do right now.