This is good! You do not want to be in this way anymore. You feel you need to do something. It is important you feel you can do something about it. Beware depression is tricky and makes us think we are powerless and we cannot control anything. And in this way, depression pushes towards death. That is way is so important to discover there is some power in you and you can do stuff to change your life. We are here to support each other. I am a grown up individual and sometimes I feel powerless because of depression. I come here often and find strength from our peers. Recovery is not a straight path, we have some high moments then we have low moments, as well. But we keep going