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Old Oct 26, 2015, 12:29 PM
DysphoricManicMom DysphoricManicMom is offline
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I experienced issues of being extremely overwhelmed and irritated during my pregnancy with my first child but chalked it up to hormones. Still had problems with irritability and what I now realize was a period of depression when my oldest son was around 3. I slept all day before work and would just let him jump all over me while i laid on the couch...

I never sought help until after the birth of my second child and I only talked to my general practitioner bc i thought it was hormone related. She ordered labs and all my hormones were balanced. I went back again and she thought post-partum depression and prescribed anti-depressants. I tried 2 different ones but only a couple days each and i couldnt stand the way they made me feel. I dont know if theyd have helped any even i gave them time to work or not. Started talking to a therapist about my behaviors and the best advice she had was to "stop" doing that...But I actually experienced a period of about a week or 2 after the birth of my 3rd child where I felt complete uphoria and had never ever felt that elated in my life. And then it all went to ****. And I started experiencing the most extreme irritation ever in my life and couldnt concentrate and was so scatter brained and wired and had lists of things i "needed" to get done. And one day I forgot to tell my boyfriend we were gonna be out of diapers and my van was getting worked on and I ran out while he was at work and i was trying to make a cloth diaper and was flipping out bc it wasnt working and i ended up snapping on him and blaming him and thats when I decided ok I am making my family miserable theres got to be something major going on here.

Sorry for the story, but yes id have to say Even though i was never diagnosed til recently, my symptoms have gotten worse after each birth.
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all I've undergone
I will keep on

underneath it all
we feel so small
the heavens fall
but still we crawl

all I've undergone
I will keep on

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