I'm sorry about this. It's all so confusing now I often wonder the same thing but I think dbt can really help with this as well like today I don't want to get out of bed and I'm sad but I'm not going to judge myself for it and say my whole life is a flop because of just one day as before I would totally think that and that is the best thing I've learned so far in DBT is not to judge myself it takes away a lot of unnecessary pain while you are dealing with other painful things in life. So if you can try not to judge yourself on lack of self control you will get it under control when the time is right and sometimes we mess up we are humans it happens. I hope you are feeling better today!