Thank you all very much. My husband had me call today to see if I can get in a day early and he had a cancelation and was able to see me. He upped my abilify back to 20 MG, upped my Lamictal back to 600 MG and advised me to continue to keep taking 2 MG of Clonzapan and the Haldol as needed as a "rescue." He said I seem very manic and he will call to follow up with me later this week and will see me again in 2 weeks. He asked me, based on something I had written (and read him) if I had plans to kill my husband??? I said no, of course but was surprised my feelings of agitation came across so strongly. He also asked me if I needed to go in the hospital and I told him not at this point and he agreed but said we needed to watch the suicidal ideation.

As far as reading the explicit material to my new t, I asked my pdoc about it after reading it to him (I always read my writings to him). He told me to tell her ahead of time that my words are explicit but that I had read them to my pdoc of over 15 years who agreed the hospital wasn't necessary at this time. He said if she had any issues to have her call him and he would handle it. He told me to give her his card (she doesn't have his information as I am, again, new to seeing her). So hopefully that will take care of it.