I know, but most people have run away when I do, or they see it. I posted another thread in the autism forum where I spoke of how people reject me by "forgetting" we had an arrangement to meet for example.

I know the routine already. Something about me "puts them off" and then they just fade quietly on me to try and get away. I don't confront them or chase after them, or try to get them to come back.

I'm just chilled now. It used to hurt before, but I've got a longing again to go back to when I was a kid, and totally on my own. I gave people a chance, I tried, everyone told me I must try to be more social and allow people in, I did, and if I don't get screwed by someone, I get rejected. So, whatever it is I'm doing now, it's not working. I just think it's time to go back to how things were, and accept that it was never meant to work out between me and everyone else.