My psychosis also tends to be supernatural and government-conspiracy themed when it rears its ugly head.

I think it's because I grew up in a very hyper-religious environment that taught a lot of very whack things, and as a child it was all I knew, so it was "real" to me. I think it provided plenty of fodder for my subconscious mind during adulthood psychosis.

To this day I have to stay away from conspiracy theory videos. YouTube is loaded with videos that both tempt and terrify me at the same time. I find myself drawn to it all, but at the same time, I know it's so easy for me to get sucked in and start freaking out.

It probably doesn't help that several theories are plausible enough, you know how they take enough true content and then add in the theory crafting parts, so it's not like it's "totally crazy" to imagine it, especially given the darker side of human nature. I also have a very analytical mind, and the materials would usually provide plenty for me to mentally sort through, often staying up all night thinking on it.

I must admit that one thing I miss about some episodes, is the feeling of "knowing" and "understanding" everything, just that feeling, where everything clicks and makes sense, even if it was only subjective. Outside of psychosis I just feel lost and confused much of the time.