Hey Christina,
This is something I've been thinking a lot about too. I think about cutting a thousand times more than I actually do it. To me, I think the thoughts are more disturbing than when I actually break down and cut - I hate being at work, etc. and all that's running through my mind is how badly I want to cut. I wish thoughts of hurting myself weren't my knee jerk reaction whenever I'm experiencing a negative emotion. I think it argues the fact that this is as much of an addiction as anything else. For me exercise helps - I guess it releases the same endorphins. Whatever works, I guess. Good luck.