that is similar to me as well. i had a lot of trauma, and i know they were there because of that...regardless if it was ongoing when they were there or not...because i have had them around when i wasn't necessarily triggered..although having other mental health struggles, stress, etc. can also cause them (for me) to be more active as was the case until about 2007 when things kind of became quiet because a lot of things for me became better managed mental health wise, things in my life drastically changed, etc. BUT they existed before then...and have come back on and off since 2007 when triggered, stressed, or even when not.

the last few months, for example, they have been around more...not as full blown as years ago, but i can still feel or hear them...i have had stress recently, but i haven't felt stressed to the degree i did in the past when i experienced them more...so, it has created a lot of confusion for me...i know they are definitely trauma related because that is the basis of them...i can feel that aspect...of them, whoever is, stuck in certain points where trauma occurred including feelings, fear, darkness, etc. and know there is more than one.

when i feel unsafe though, i guess that IS a trigger in itself...even if i never realize what created the feeling...it is hard to deal with it lately because i try to figure it out..why they are feeling what they are, who it might even be...and how i can try to help...but it just is a lingering feeling deep inside that sometimes comes closer to the surface. i do know this time of year i had trauma, so that is part of it too, i guess...it just feels strange to me being 'here' and feeling like parts of me are elsewhere but not quite knowing where....except obviously in my head lol