i was molested when i was elementary. i am a post-graduate now. i had the tendency of sexualizing any friendship. i'm afraid that i just did. because a friend was distancing herself from me. and i am avoiding her too. i just had held her hand... there was nothing intimate. but i worry that she was disturbed by what i did. sometimes she'd talk about a classmate and i bet she was referring to me. i am paranoid with her. am i an abuser already?