I want more than anything to be a bride. I've planned and dreamt of the special day since I was a little girl. I often look at online bridal stores, browsing the dresses, dreaming of a day when I have a reason to buy one. I even know where my wedding will take place, Myrtle Beach. The catch? I can't seem to find the groom in all this.

I know I am a great catch (I mean, I have hair that most other women would kill for). I look in the mirror each day and tell myself how wonderful I am. I love myself like everyone seems to say and thinks I need to do before loving others.

WHERE'S MY GROOM?!?

Forgive me for sounding so spoiled but I think I've more than payed my dues and am more than deserving of having my dream fulfilled. Why can't I find my groom? It's my damn time NOW.

Why won't guys see me as the loving wonderful catch of a wife I want to be for them? Is it my chubbyness? If so, it sounds kinda shallow to refuse me because of the fact that my meds aren't so kind weight wise. I am not going to lose the weight if you refuse to look past it to the wonderful heart I have inside. Come to think of it, I don't want the likes of you anywhere near me.

Sorry, this sort of turned into a rant. I am just fustrated here. You can move on now. I'm done.