SkyBdark, I went one better than that: I "fired" both the doctor and the therapist who were treating me at that point. Now I have a new doctor, and finally managed to tell him about this -- although apparently I was so cryptic in how I brought it up, he didn't quite get it until halfway through the discussion, but we did finally get to where we both used the "A Word" -- and -- although it took me several months to get to that point -- I told my new therapist about it, too. Now, while it's not the primary focus of therapy, it does play a part in almost every session. (The worst thing about having had this dismissed so much in the past is that it's very, very difficult for me to bring it up now with my treatment team.)

And Facade, if you're interested in some private messaging, I can offer a few things about weight and healthy eating. It would kinda require I tell you a little about myself, including a few things I'd rather not have on public display -- shame again, you know? Just let me know.

And I do agree -- after so many, many years of hiding it, it's so good to be able to express some of what goes on for me. I'm glad you're finding the same sort of relief, too.