I agree with Copperstar.
That sounds like emotional abuse.
A husband that loves his wife should help you & support you, not make it worse.
They will never understand what it is like but they can still empathize & love you.

You are still a child of God. I struggled with this, as well. I thought if I prayed enough, trusted God enough, I could overcome my moods.
I realize now that my mind is sick. It doesn't work like others.
And THAT'S OK. I am still a child of God & He loves me still, regardless.
Welcome to PC.