You sound like an awesome person. You sound kind of like me, in fact...though I can't draw (that was my mother, the art major). I chose my art in the form of music instead.

I don't know the answer to your question, just like when I ask the same question about myself, other's don't have the answer for me. It's very frustrating, and I'm sorry I can't give you insight. I know that I can be pretty guarded--this is something multiple people have called out in me and something that I usually cannot see in myself. It's so inherently a part of me that I don't even know when I put up walls or push people away. I also don't really put myself out there, as in I don't go out to the places where I can meet guys. I am somewhat introverted and prefer to be at home either on the computer or with a book. I do go out, but it's usually with one or two female friends. The other hard thing about my situation is my age and maybe even surroundings--I am in my 30's and men my age are mostly married with kids. I also live in a place where a lot of people meet in college, or at church. I have graduated, and I don't go to church.

Do you feel that you are outgoing? Is there something you could get involved in which would help you to get to know men? I used to think that a guy would just come up on the street and ask me out. Lol, yeah no, that rarely happens. My guy friends have all told me they'd rather eat glass than do that no matter how attracted they are. Anyway...