This may seem crazy but for around the last 6 or 7 years i've been hearing a voice that would just say "buh buh buh buh" and then stop. it would go on at random times..maybe once or twice a year, but it's never completely gone away. and it's one of those things that even though i remember hearing, i can't reimagine it even the second after it ends. but recently it did its buh buh thing and then started telling me to 'say something' so i tried to and it just kept saying it for maybe 2 whole minutes. I have no idea what's been going on with jt... anyone else have this problem?? I was also thinking it might have something to do with this next problem, though. so im not thinking im fat in any way shape or form..actually im trying to gain weight, but i can't seem to eat. im just not interested in it. i skip breakfast and usually dont eat lunch...i've been eating about 1-1.5 meals a day (on weekdays) since like 2nd grade i think? it all started when my friend stopped eating her lunch because she didnt like what her dad would pack, and i felt weird eating by myself in front of her so i stopped. but im in 11th grade now and i know it was dumb to do that, but i just cant find it in me to eat in front of people at school. and maybe it is deeper than that, but i know i have issues talking to waitors, strangers, etc. and even walking by people if im alone makes me feel like i look funny or whatever. and i don't know what's wrong with me... i've tried talking to my family about some of this and my parents yell at me for "talking stupid" and telling me "what would the rest of the family think about this, why would you want to put us through that" or "they'll take you away, you'll have nothing, you'll never see any of us anymore...is that what you want?" and i know they care about me..i think they're just scared. but i need help....i need it before it gets out of hand, and i just feel so empty and alone because i cant even ask the people i care about most to help me.
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