I made plans with my sister to go swimming. I find out the day of that she decided to go to the zoo with her neighbor instead. People in my family make comments that lead me to belive that they wish I did not marry my husband. I call my grandma but she does not return calls. My other grandma is ill with alztimers and does not even know who I am. Even on here sometimes I get the feeling that I am not wanted. I think that this is stemming from my low self esteem and paranoia or something.