Thank you everyone!
I just took a weekend off from everything. My boyfriend and I just spent a nice relaxing weekend together...and I feel better. I don't know why because frankly I do not know why I was feeling this way in the first place. Lately it has been turning on and off like crazy...like flipping a switch.
I was very afraid last week...more afraid than I have been in a long time, but I feel better now. Much more calm. Hearing everyone's kind words has helped so much. You are all so important to me...the friends that I crave and know that I do indeed have here.

I will keep everyone up to date...as soon as I know too

Jessica