Blue - it took 2wks of him flipping between anger at me and desperation to regain my confidence, forgive, and forget. He made it about himself I must say - that ~ I ~ was hurting him because I wouldn't look past what he did.

But Blue, I stood firm. It was hard, I will always love him, but I stayed strong and stood up for myself. In the end, he relented.

We finally had a conversation about the situation the other nght and he finally admitted fault and what he did was wrong. He finally listened to my 'list' of offences and my interpretations of them. He finally said I was right. Whew. I wanted to hear that validation of my thinking and feelings more than an apology.

But we won't get back together I made that clear. I cannot forget, I cannot forgive