Oh ((Supanova)), I am sorry you lost two ponies that were your favorite this year.

When I lost the first pony that suffered damage due to my neighbor's dog I had to put her down, I held her and that traumatized me. I wanted to be there for her, she was always there for me and all the children, she was SO WONDERFUL with the children. She brought smiles and pleasure to so many children that were challenged, a few terminally ill that I would go to the homes and the parents would both stand on each side helping the child sit up and ride and the child would smile and enjoy it so much. I never had to worry about the pony spooking or behaving badly, she was always so patient. Some of the children would get tired easily, so I would tell them how my pony can get tired too. Then I would turn to my pony and ask her if she was tired. She would roll her eyes, and I would ask again "oh you are tired?" And she would roll her eyes and yawn and yawn. The children were always amazed by how human like my pony was, the parents were shocked.

For me the damage and loss I suffered was really just like losing my own children/ family. I suffer from PTSD and complicated grief disorder. I lost another pony too, I had no money to take her to the vet hospital, all my credit cards were maxed because of all the veterinary expenses from all the damaged/hurt and vet hospitals will NOT see a pony/horse unless they are paid right then with a check or credit card. And yet another wonderful pony suffered a fractured pelvis, a damaged hip joint and torn ligaments down his leg. He was in constant pain that stressed him so much to where he had horrible diareah that I would have to wash off two or three times a day. What many people do not understand is that horses/ponies can end up having stomach issues and diareah from stress much like humans do, they can't throw up though so often their pain/discomfort is a lot worse then ours. When a horse is panicking and running around not able to really get away from a danger or predatory animal they can stress to a level where they can choke, colic and even suffer a lot of physical injuries. Four or Five of my horses/ponies choked and I was so lucky I did not end up losing more than the one I did lose. One coliced badly because of how the stress she endured from the dog chasing around her caused her to suffer what is called an impaction, but with humans beings they experience constipation problems from stress.

When a dog is predatory like this one was and was actually known for with the breed of dog it was, they get into a mindset when they are chasing like this where they get a high off of it and they keep on chasing and often ignoring everything but that chase. The more noises the prey makes, the more the dog gets pumped up in the chase. My ponies and horses were making those little noises of "fear".

Because of what I lost, I could not cover the business I had and I could not afford to pay on the debt created. I had to beg the credit card companies to get on a hardship program and that ruined my credit rating which had always been really good. All my credit was frozen, still is. My neighbor continued to be intrusive. The police did not come out, when I tried to defend my boundaries they would call the police and I would get yelled at. I would hand walk some of them up the driveway because it was shaded and a nice long level walk and my neighbors would race by me almost hitting me which scared these injured ponies/horses (we have a shared driveway, I own the land, they have a right of way but their true right of way can't be created because of the power lines and the pond.) Even though my neighbor tore down a no trespassing sign I put up because "he did not like it" and admitted that to the police. I asked the police to press charges and they didn't.

I did not have enough to address all the injuries it took me a long time to make money so I could do that, pay on the debt and feed my ponies. The opposing attorney for my neighbor's insurance company uses that against me. I was trying to make money to help my ponies and I was battling complicated grief disorder and PTSD. I have had so many be mean to me IT'S BEEN HORRIBLE.

I cried under the anethesia because of how that nurse kept talking about how WONDERFUL and LOVING my horse is with the children and he is the best they have in the facility. I know they are wonderful and loving, THATS WHY I LOVED THEM AND APPRECIATED THEM SO MUCH. They love children BECAUSE THEY ARE LOVED.

I had a post traumatic breakdown but you should read my medical files. I was treated badly, my older sister yelled at me and she would not let my parents come and visit me in the psych ward, she never even hugged or comforted me, instead she told me if I don't snap out of it and get my big girl panties on I would lose EVERYTHING.

I developed planter's faciutus in both my feet, it got so bad it was hard to walk. I had been on my feet CONTANTLY trying to earn money, trying to hand walk the injured. My mother told me to come and pick her up and she would give me some money so I could have injections in my feet and have orthotics made and buy sneakers fitted to my feet because I could not afford any of that. About a month or so ago my older sister made it a point to go through my parents financial records and she sent me a nasty letter insinuating I did something wrong by accepting money from my mother. My mother has dimentia now and I know my mother would be SO ANGRY with my older sister for being SO MEAN LIKE THAT TO ME.

Early this year my new lawyer (the other lawyer I had was declining in dementia and that is a whole other horror story) got a mediation with the opposing attorney and it took a lot out of me to go to that. The judge agreed with my lawyer and even saw how badly my exlawyer handed my case. I sat in a huge foyer waiting in case the judge wanted to question me. I watched the woman opposing attorney march in and out of the private meeting room angry and stomping back and forth making sure not to even make eye contact with me and the two insurance adjusters were there and they were wispering in a way that was obvious they had no intention of acknowledging the value even though my lawyer had a written appraisal and bills. This same attorney that had deposed me and pretended to be so nice and watched me go into a flashback where I could not even talk when she asked me "who was damaged the worst". I never got to finish being deposed because of how my lawyer had gotten so bad at remembering he forgot every deposition she tried to schedule with him. I begged my exlawyer to please get the deposition finished, I sat across from him in tears and he finally stood up and said to me, "well, I have listened to you and you should appreciate that because I make $800 per hour". It did not matter, he continued to forget not only to inform me of scheduled depositions but he forgot them completely which only angered the opposing side. And that came down on ME.

I have been dealing with this for 8 years and counting. I have been treated so badly FOR HAVING PTSD and COMPLICATED GRIEF DISORDER so much now, in so many ways. I am only guilty of really loving and CARING about these wonderful ponies and horses that never deserved to suffer because my neighbor chose to be NEGLIGENT.