that's what i want to do...i just want to open my front door and start walking and never look back...

i'm stuck on not being able to understand how all this happened so fast...a couple months ago i was ok - not happy but functioning

now in the past month i've been
<ul type="square">[*]admitted to a psych ward involuntarily[*]cut, burned, and scratched myself leaving multiple scars[*]began hurting and cutting "down there"[*]posted a profile on an adult site[*]exchanged sexual messages and pictures of my privates with a "daddy"[*]got the number of a man who wants to %#@&#! me....and considered calling![/list]what in the HELL is happening to me!!!!!

i'm the girl who never goes out. you talks to her parents all the time. whose biggest vice is chocolate! who never smokes or drinks or does drugs or has sex!! i can't hardly get anymore squeaky clean!!!

nothing is giving me any relief from the pain...i used to be able to watch TV as a distration but i haven't watched for probably two weeks....i used to go online and had friends via a myspace page but i haven't checked it in weeks.....most recently i would draw the things i did to at least try and deal with them but i don't even want to do that....my house is filthy even dog messes to be cleaned up....all i can do each day is remember to feed the dogs....and sleep....even breathing is work