Myzen,
It depends on the medication and the person. Not all SSRI's leave someone like a zombie in a body. Lots of people on this board have had great luck with Welbutrin, but it made me a completely different person. However, you said that your friends had the same thing happen with Prozac, but it made me a greater version of myself.
You will never know what will help you unless you try to take something. What do you have to lose? While your drinking might not be helping your problems I think you need to handle one thing at a time.
Please at least think about it.

Jessica