I am soo conflicted.

I am on Match and a guy emailed me on there. He's perfect personality wise but he's a bit chubby, which I am not particularly fond of. I feel so shallow and hipocritical. The reason I am teetering like I am is because I want to be in love but at the same time I want a relationship that isn't a repeat of my last one, where I wasn't really into the guy physically.

I don't feel right stringing a guy along for the sake of being in a relationship.

I also hate it when I have to tell a guy I'm dating about my struggles with MI. It feels like a bunch of skeletons in my closet. That and the risk of the guy not being accepting of it.

I just don't know...