I think my brain short circuted or something. Ive been so stressed that it is running on low power. I went through the whole day but I don't remember anything except my husband telling me he wants to die. I went to walmart and to a church I don't know. The only reason I know this is because There is walmart stuff in my house that I don't remember buying. Also a bulliten from a church. Its not even my denomination that I follow. Where did I go and not know it. i cant go on no more. If I tell my husband I need a break he will just tell me that It is his fault and he will just take pills and die or something. I love him so much but I feel like I am walking on egg shells. i am so afraid I will trigger him. My pdoc told me that i am supposed to have two hours to myself daily. No daughter no husband no nobody. Tomarrow I am going to the ymca.