i got to thinking of a couple of things:
1. is having these sort of problems really THAT bad as long as you arent hurting anyone or yourself? i dont think i mind them that much.
2. is there such a thing as a NORMAL person...really. think about it. or is it possible that everyone is "a little off" and the people who arent outward about it are just suppressing the urges and keeping their thoughts to themselves because they are afraid.
3. Im afraid to get diagnosed and medicated because who will i be? ive always been this way? that will freak me out so much to not be the same in my head. its like, "hi welcome to your new mind, we are just going to give you these pills and leave you now. figure it out on your own"
4. is it bad if i kind of like that i dont feel sane? like, its confusing yes, and weird, and different, and at times its scary, but if i wasnt this way, if i was "normal", what would i be like? what IS normal? would i be boring? dull? i think im funny now...would i still be funny? i like the creativity that blossoms from my hallucinations and imagination, would i BE creative?
5. And kind of back to #1, what if being this way is the way its supposed to be, i feel like i know a lot of life truths, i see things for what they really are. i understand things that others dont. when i say this, people say im crazy, but am i? or am i just saying and thinking and believing what we were meant to? what if everyone is blind folded and mine came off and now i see what the world really looks like but because everyone still has their blindfolds on, they dont see what i see so they just assume im crazy?

do i think too deep? Does anyone else think this stuff?